Last week while sitting in Starbucks writing, I got an email with a song attachment from one of my favorite worship songwriters.
And as a songwriter myself, that's not necessarily unusual in this day and age where we pass songs around in mp3 form while writing with each other all over the world. But this song wasn't just another mp3.
This song left me heaving sobs in the middle of a busy coffee shop—running outside to wail inside my car.
For quite some time, I've been very vocal in my praises about Amanda Cooke as a writer. She fits melodies with words in a way that pulls on my heart strings like a symphony—her songs Closer and You Make Me Brave on past Bethel albums being staples on rotation blasting through my speakers, leading me into life-changing encounters with my King.
When I saw the email from her and read the message letting me know how after Goldie had died, she sat down at her piano and began to pour out a song—my fingers couldn't click the link fast enough.
And with her permission, just 3 months and a few days since my little gold bird flew away from this earth, my sweet friend Amanda Cook is letting me share the masterpiece she wrote about my giant in the heavenlies–my little Goldie. (Get your tissues ready)
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GOLDIE
by Amanda Cook
Goldie you have been, forever you will be
Baby, there's no time limit on your destiny
Goldie you have made a permanent mark on me
Though seemingly a whisper your life has led me to my knees
Cause you're a Giant in the Heavenlies
A little Giant in the Heavenlies
Goldie
Goldie you have been, forever you will be
Baby, there's no time limit on your destiny
Goldie you have made a permanent mark on me
Though the pain within me lingers you lead me to my Prince of Peace
Cause you're a Giant in the Heavelies
A little Giant in the Heavenlies
Goldie
Cause where you are is where we want to be
Dancing on the feet of the Father
So baby, save a place for me
Dancing on the feet of the Father
Goldie you have been, forever you will be
Baby, there's no time limit on your destiny
Goldie you have made a permanent mark on me
Though the pain around me lingers you lead me to my Prince of Peace
Cause you're a Giant in the Heavelies
A little Giant in the Heavenlies
Goldie
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The bridge: oh my sweetness. So many tears. Beyond beautiful. What a tribute to your golden baby. She is destined to heal lives over and over.
“Cause where you are is where we want to be
Dancing on the feet of the Father
So baby, save a place for me
Dancing on the feet of the Father”
The bridge: oh my sweetness. So many tears. Beyond beautiful. What a tribute to your golden baby. She is destined to heal lives over and over.
“Cause where you are is where we want to be
Dancing on the feet of the Father
So baby, save a place for me
Dancing on the feet of the Father”
The bridge gets me every time. (:
Oh. My. Word. Undone. Thank you Amanda and Christa.
Oh. My. Word. Undone. Thank you Amanda and Christa.
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Christa,
This is so beautiful, words fall short. I lost my little Emme, 8 days old, almost two months ago and the healing in this song brought me to my knees. Thank you so much for sharing your journey of healing, beautiful Goldie and this song. Xoxo
Christa,
This is so beautiful, words fall short. I lost my little Emme, 8 days old, almost two months ago and the healing in this song brought me to my knees. Thank you so much for sharing your journey of healing, beautiful Goldie and this song. Xoxo
Oh Karla, I am so sorry. ): No mother should bury a child. Praying for you as you continue to heal. xoxo
Thank you for sharing. I don’t have kids yet, but have had close friends lose their’s and it’s so hard to see them in such grief. Praying He is so near each day.
Thank you for sharing. I don’t have kids yet, but have had close friends lose their’s and it’s so hard to see them in such grief. Praying He is so near each day.
Definitely share this with them!
Thank you for sharing this song, it’s refreshing to hear a song that speaks life to a little one lost and the ones that longed to know him or her more. Bless you and thank you for sharing with your heart in vulnerability.
Thank you for sharing this song, it’s refreshing to hear a song that speaks life to a little one lost and the ones that longed to know him or her more. Bless you and thank you for sharing with your heart in vulnerability.
xoxo
Gave me shivers….Beautiful 🙂
meeeeee too. Every time. (:
Gave me shivers….Beautiful 🙂
meeeeee too. Every time. (:
Brilliant
Brilliant
This left me with the biggest smile. I have 2 babies waiting for me in heaven. This song gave me great peace. Thank you for sharing.
This left me with the biggest smile. I have 2 babies waiting for me in heaven. This song gave me great peace. Thank you for sharing.
My brother and sister inlaw lost their son to anencephaly in October. By chance I found your blog and through it I have found so much peace learning how to mourn this loss by simply going through the mess of it with you- via blog. I am a mess at this angelic melody!
Lifting you up often, thank you for allowing me to be apart of this, xoxo
My brother and sister inlaw lost their son to anencephaly in October. By chance I found your blog and through it I have found so much peace learning how to mourn this loss by simply going through the mess of it with you- via blog. I am a mess at this angelic melody!
Lifting you up often, thank you for allowing me to be apart of this, xoxo
Just beautiful….sobbing while listening. Thank you for sharing!
Just beautiful….sobbing while listening. Thank you for sharing!
Grateful for the songsmiths the Lord has created for Himself and for His children. Assuredly, Goldlie is an unstoppable member of that great cloud of witnesses, cheering you on, Christa.
Grateful for the songsmiths the Lord has created for Himself and for His children. Assuredly, Goldlie is an unstoppable member of that great cloud of witnesses, cheering you on, Christa.
This is absolutely beautiful. Brought tears to my eyes, but warmth to my heart. Thanks for sharing. My prayers are continuously with you and your family.
This is absolutely beautiful. Brought tears to my eyes, but warmth to my heart. Thanks for sharing. My prayers are continuously with you and your family.
The bridge is so beautiful and powerful!! Thank you for sharing this wonderful work of art Christa! It is a song with a message of such hope.
The bridge is so beautiful and powerful!! Thank you for sharing this wonderful work of art Christa! It is a song with a message of such hope.
My sister hung herself at 18, this even spoke to me. Thank you.
My sister hung herself at 18, this even spoke to me. Thank you.
Wouldn’t it be just like the God who lives outside of time to redefine what it takes to have a life of “impact”? What if a life of 40 minutes could have as much an impact as a life of 40 years… or 80? What if the truth of ‘no time on destiny” brought freedom, peace and healing to multitudes… and to Goldie’s parents? Good name for a book… just sayin’
Wouldn’t it be just like the God who lives outside of time to redefine what it takes to have a life of “impact”? What if a life of 40 minutes could have as much an impact as a life of 40 years… or 80? What if the truth of ‘no time on destiny” brought freedom, peace and healing to multitudes… and to Goldie’s parents? Good name for a book… just sayin’
I listened to this before I went to bed, and the first thing on my lips when I woke up was the melody “Goldie you have made a permanent mark on me.” Just like many others, I’ve never met you or your Goldie, but she has left a mark on the hearts of many people. Your “little Giant in the Heavenlies” is moving sounds here on earth that are incredibly powerful. This song has been on repeat ALL morning. There’s such a healing sound within the melody. Thank you again for sharing!
I listened to this before I went to bed, and the first thing on my lips when I woke up was the melody “Goldie you have made a permanent mark on me.” Just like many others, I’ve never met you or your Goldie, but she has left a mark on the hearts of many people. Your “little Giant in the Heavenlies” is moving sounds here on earth that are incredibly powerful. This song has been on repeat ALL morning. There’s such a healing sound within the melody. Thank you again for sharing!
Amen and amen. What a beautiful celebration of your sweet Goldie!
Amen and amen. What a beautiful celebration of your sweet Goldie!
I’m in tears…absolutely beautiful
I’m in tears…absolutely beautiful
Oh, my Father, hold these mothers who need you so…Amen
Oh, my Father, hold these mothers who need you so…Amen
Woah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What an incredible gift this must have been for you Christa!!!! What a beautiful song!!!! I am sending it to a friend of mine!!!!
Woah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What an incredible gift this must have been for you Christa!!!! What a beautiful song!!!! I am sending it to a friend of mine!!!!
I found your blog last year when you were almost full term with Goldie and was really touched by your story that unfolded in the months and now year that has followed, (with the birth of Birdie – congratulations! She’s utterly beautiful). I’m a student, unmarried without any children, but my heart was so stirred by reading about just ‘the tip of the iceberg’ of your journey. When I first listened to this song, a storm had subsided and I saw the most incredible landscape out the window that made me breakdown and weep. At the time, I didn’t really know what to say, so I never posted it (as my phone also doesn’t do it justice). The rainbow appeared towards the end of the song and it took my breath away.
In a nut shell, what I’m trying to say is that even though I’ve never met you or your family, and even though I live on a different continent, your story and Goldie’s life has reached far and wide, stirring the hearts of those who didn’t even know they could be touched in that way. I want to bless you and encourage you in all you ever do. Jesus is taking such good care of her, and also wants to remind you and me every day, how tenderly he loves and cares for us too.
God bless you forever and always,
Meg
I found your blog last year when you were almost full term with Goldie and was really touched by your story that unfolded in the months and now year that has followed, (with the birth of Birdie – congratulations! She’s utterly beautiful). I’m a student, unmarried without any children, but my heart was so stirred by reading about just ‘the tip of the iceberg’ of your journey. When I first listened to this song, a storm had subsided and I saw the most incredible landscape out the window that made me breakdown and weep. At the time, I didn’t really know what to say, so I never posted it (as my phone also doesn’t do it justice). The rainbow appeared towards the end of the song and it took my breath away.
In a nut shell, what I’m trying to say is that even though I’ve never met you or your family, and even though I live on a different continent, your story and Goldie’s life has reached far and wide, stirring the hearts of those who didn’t even know they could be touched in that way. I want to bless you and encourage you in all you ever do. Jesus is taking such good care of her, and also wants to remind you and me every day, how tenderly he loves and cares for us too.
God bless you forever and always,
Meg