Is God more male than female?
I’ve grown up in a culture that taught me to be like God. . But I’m not a father, nor do I want to be. I’m not a son, with no…
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Does This Little Girl Deserve Punishment?
I found this picture of myself at my parents house recently, staring at it with tears puddling up around my green eyes. My little face was so angelic, so pure. I am…
A Woman Making Peace With Her Process
“I am a woman making peace with her process.” ???????? . I have a light side. I have a dark side. I have a spirit side. I have a shadow…
Choose Your Anger
I have always hated my anger. . ‘Angry Christa’ was a part of my personality who lived deep inside my heart, & I never knew when she was going to…
Choose Your Choices
Hi. ???????? I’m Christa. . And at 39 years old, I’m finally getting the courage to start being myself privately AND publicly. . For many years I chose things to…
Choose Your Body
I have lived in a body I have been at war with. I have lived in a body I have hated. I have lived in a body I have been…
Inflexible?
In preschool I could sit cross legged like all the other kids. But kindergarten started and my right hip had locked up & my leg wouldn’t turn. Over the years I…
Are you abandoning yourself?
Abandonment. My truest, deepest, longest fear. * To be adored and then abandoned by those that I love….a reoccurring pattern throughout my 39 years of life. Tale after tale of…
Am I Safe?
I’ve never really felt safe. Not really. * I thought my husband’s love would finally make me feel safe. But when it felt absent, my safety went away. I thought…
The fear of daughters
Daughters. ❤️ For years I was terrified of raising daughters. I was afraid I would pass on all my wounds and teach them to grow up and be all the…
Pink Eye Blues
I have pink eye. ???? And I look like someone punched me in a bar fight and then poured salt in the wound. I’ve caught myself staring at my reflection…
Committing to myself
When I got married, I had no idea what a loving commitment really was. In my mind, it meant that I had finally found the man whose unconditional love had…
Smiling In A Storm
So far my day has been interesting. Lox was up for an hour at 1am…so I was up for an hour or two at 1am! Then when I got breakfast…
Mom. What Does God Look Like?
Yesterday, Moses stared out the window and asked me, “Mom, what does God look like.” ???? I looked quickly in my rear view mirror, catching a glimpse of my green…
Get Your HEAD Swimsuit Ready
Last week, I packed up half of my closet and put in in a box to send to my mom in Texas. The clothes I selected weren’t old, they…
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