I looked down at my little Goldie's birth and death certificate, running my finger over her beautiful name—Luca Gold Gifford.
And all I wanted was to be Luca Gold Gifford's mommy in front of the entire world.
I sat in my parents living room days after Luca died with my best friend Kelly, talking about this new, deep desire that began emerging the day she went to be with Jesus. All I wanted was to have the same last name as my daughter–to be an official Gifford in front of the world.
These things, however, take more time than I imagined.
Legally, to the United States government, my passport, bank account, and drivers license, I've always been Christa Black Gifford from the moment I said ‘I do' seven years ago. But after being ‘Christa Black' for so many years while doing the music/blog/writer thing, when I got married, it seemed natural to just say a ‘Black' in my public life, and a ‘Gifford' in private. Plus, it was kind of Carmen Sandiego mysterious, which wasn't initially my goal, but definitely a fun perk. The work that goes behind switching a website link, website design, a twitter handle, Facebook pages, Instagram—it just all felt a bit too overwhelming to navigate grief, write a book, travel the world, be a mom and a wife, and figure out how to officially switch my name.
Last month at Worship U at Bethel, I was listed in the program as Christa Black Gifford and introduced to speak as Christa Black…..then heading down to Jesus Culture where I was on their website as Christa Black, but introduced as Christa Black Gifford.
And I knew….it was just time to make the switch. Officially.
So with help from my sister-in-law Libby Gifford and my forever brother Darren Lau, here I am, friends, in all my glory—displaying my real name for all to see. I've always been proud to be a Gifford, but never as proud as the day I got to be Luca Gold Gifford's mommy.
Hey, everyone. I'm Christa Black Gifford. It's really nice to meet you.
PS. Be patient with me as my team figures out how to switch everything! We want to do it in a way where it doesn't require any extra work from you guys! xx