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Why Sorrow Feels So Good: The Difference Between Sorrow & Despair

This morning, I was unexpectedly faced with the agonizing task of packing up my daughter Goldie’s little clothes. Before I even realized what I was doing, my spring cleaning attempts to make…

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How To Tell A Dud From A Stud

There’s a reason why I call my husband Lucas a Studhub…..in fact, there are millions of them. And on this day that he was born, May 26, I thought I’d…

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My Diamond Cave

“Hey babe.  Let’s drive over to Dallas this weekend and surprise Josh and Katie.” (If you’re just tuning in to this story and haven’t read my last blog, this one won’t…

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How I Stopped Being Angry At Jesus. Hint: DIAMONDS

This past January when Studhubs and I packed a few suitcases, moved our belongings into storage in Los Angeles, California, and got a furnished rental in Abilene, Texas—people thought we’d gone crazy….

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3 Ways To Avoid Divorce During Tragedy

“No, babe, you never told me we had a meeting today.”  Studhubs tone was firm, and more than annoyed. “Oh, yes I did,” I snapped back, throwing my hands into…

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If God is Good, Why Do Bad Things Still Happen?

I’m not gonna lie, this past weekend was hard. When I said yes to speaking at 5 services this Mother’s Day weekend at Celebrate Church in Sioux Falls, I had…

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The Huffington Post Blog Features “Embracing The Pain of Losing a Child”

Isn’t it amazing when God shows off? Through a lot of random connections that I will never believe are simply coincidence, I have a blog being featured on the Huffington…

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What To Do When Your Jeans Don’t Fit And You Want To Scream

For two months I’ve passed these drawers, wondering when I’d have the strength to open them up and face what’s inside. Little socks for little feet, dainty hats and tiny…

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How To Stay Calm In The Middle Of A Tornado

Monday evening while voluntarily torturing myself at a Cross Fit gym, the eerie warning of tornado sirens began to fill the thick Mississippi air.  I looked at my husband Lucas…

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Am I Crazy, Or Just Having Crazy Thoughts?

Last week while driving with my family along a 2-lane Texas road, an overly ambitious car decided he had time to pass a slower 18-wheeler.  The problem was, this pass was…

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How I Know God Didn’t Kill My Baby Girl–Part 6

“The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn’t exist. And like that…..he’s gone.” -The Usual Suspects, 1995   This past week, I’ve had the privilege…

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How I Know God Didn’t Kill My Baby Girl–Part 5

Some days my arms feel emptier than others.  And today, the emptiness is almost overwhelming. I clutch Goldie’s blankets and pull them close, but the ache doesn’t seem to subside.  I…

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How I Know God Didn’t Kill My Baby Girl–Part 4

“This guy’s walking down the street when he falls in a hole.  The walls are so steep he can’t get out.  A doctor passes by and the guy shouts up,…

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Ever Wondered The Difference Between Sympathy & Empathy?

[youtube width=”657″ height=”369″]http://youtu.be/1Evwgu369Jw[/youtube] Between cross fit kicking my tail tonight and taking a last-minute trip to celebrate my grandmother’s 89th birthday, my heart, brain, and body are a little tuckered…

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Ever Wondered The Difference Between Sympathy & Empathy?

[youtube width=”657″ height=”369″]http://youtu.be/1Evwgu369Jw[/youtube] Between cross fit kicking my tail tonight and taking a last-minute trip to celebrate my grandmother’s 89th birthday, my heart, brain, and body are a little tuckered…

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How I Know God Didn’t Kill My Baby Girl–Part 3

Can you imagine what Abraham felt like when God told him to go sacrifice his only son Isaac?  I try to put myself in his shoes from time to time…

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How I Know God Didn’t Kill My Baby Girl–Part 2

A pastor stands up in his pulpit and shouts out to his congregation, “God is good!” And as if on command, everyone in the pews shout back in unison, “ALL…

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How I Know God Didn’t Kill My Baby Girl–Part 1

They were bound to come.  Comments filled with theology that made me want to laugh.  Or in a few instances, punch a wall. And while I understand these comments are…

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