October 24, 2017

Choose Your Choices

Hi. 🙋🏻 I'm Christa. .
And at 39 years old, I'm finally getting the courage to start being myself privately AND publicly. .
For many years I chose things to make people like me. I made choices to avoid rejection. I chose to perform FOR love instead of finding what I liked and own it. I chose clothes to fit in with certain groups…or to make sure I wasn't too attractive as a good married woman. 👗I chose music because it was what I was supposed to be listening to to advance my spiritual life, and not because it was even a style I enjoyed. 🎧I chose to serve others to GET love back INSTEAD of giving because I was full of love to give.🕴🏻I chose to like movies that others liked, & eat certain foods because they were cool. 🍲I have chosen designer things because they were designer and would get home and wonder what in the world I was going to do with with five inch orange patent leather 👠 . 🤦🏻‍♀️ I have chosen to censor myself to avoid rocking the boat, and chosen to stay silent to avoid hate bloggers. 😢 .
But then one day I woke up. 🙌🏻 I looked in the mirror and asked myself, “Christa, who the hell are you, and what do YOU like?” 🤔 (clearly, at times I like to choose a good, solid curse word). ☺️ I didn’t ask…what does your family expect you to be? Or what do your friends need you to be? I didn’t ask….what do I need to be to make my husband love me more, or what do I need to write to gain more followers? I look deeply into my eyes and asked….
WHO AM I?
WHAT DO I LIKE?
WHAT AM I CREATED TO SAY?
WHAT DO I WANT TO WEAR?
WHAT DO I LIKE TO EAT?
WHAT KIND OF WOMAN DO I WANT TO BE?
WHO WOULD I BE IF I WASN'T AFRAID? 🤔
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I’m far from having all the answers to these questions, but for the first time in my life I’m willing to ask.  Because at the end of the day, am I going to play it safe and make choices to keep people around, or am I going to risk it all and choose to be the person God created me to be—regardless of what happens?
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(Day 4's girl today in the Choose Yourself Challenge dives more into this!) link in profile #instanlkg #MasterHeart#chooseyourselfchallenge

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