Hi. 🙋🏻 I'm Christa. .
And at 39 years old, I'm finally getting the courage to start being myself privately AND publicly. .
For many years I chose things to make people like me. I made choices to avoid rejection. I chose to perform FOR love instead of finding what I liked and own it. I chose clothes to fit in with certain groups…or to make sure I wasn't too attractive as a good married woman. 👗I chose music because it was what I was supposed to be listening to to advance my spiritual life, and not because it was even a style I enjoyed. 🎧I chose to serve others to GET love back INSTEAD of giving because I was full of love to give.🕴🏻I chose to like movies that others liked, & eat certain foods because they were cool. 🍲I have chosen designer things because they were designer and would get home and wonder what in the world I was going to do with with five inch orange patent leather 👠 . 🤦🏻♀️ I have chosen to censor myself to avoid rocking the boat, and chosen to stay silent to avoid hate bloggers. 😢 .
But then one day I woke up. 🙌🏻 I looked in the mirror and asked myself, “Christa, who the hell are you, and what do YOU like?” 🤔 (clearly, at times I like to choose a good, solid curse word). ☺️ I didn’t ask…what does your family expect you to be? Or what do your friends need you to be? I didn’t ask….what do I need to be to make my husband love me more, or what do I need to write to gain more followers? I look deeply into my eyes and asked….
WHO AM I?
WHAT DO I LIKE?
WHAT AM I CREATED TO SAY?
WHAT DO I WANT TO WEAR?
WHAT DO I LIKE TO EAT?
WHAT KIND OF WOMAN DO I WANT TO BE?
WHO WOULD I BE IF I WASN'T AFRAID? 🤔
I’m far from having all the answers to these questions, but for the first time in my life I’m willing to ask. Because at the end of the day, am I going to play it safe and make choices to keep people around, or am I going to risk it all and choose to be the person God created me to be—regardless of what happens?
(Day 4's girl today in the Choose Yourself Challenge dives more into this!) link in profile #instanlkg #MasterHeart#chooseyourselfchallenge
Hi. 🙋🏻 I'm Christa. .
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